timely or late

so i decided to start a blog. i first felt like i was starting late. like i could never catch up, and my posts would always be behind. i know that doesn't make sense, but it is the way i felt. and i thought how many, including me, have a way of feeling like God is late. that he does things on His time, that which takes too long for us humans. well that doesn't make sense either. and so i said, 'nope, God is always timely and perfect', and if i am feeling a push to start a blog, then i will consider it timely. i always thought i could use myspace or facebook, perhaps a journal, to write these types of entries, but it never happened. it seems that the simplistic form of a blog, like my xanga way back, is the best way to have a simple online journal. but instead of a made up world, with a fantastical story about mercutio (me) and cordelia (jessica), i'm writing real things. real thoughts, real questions, and real happenings in my life. why do i need a fantasy world when i'm married to my soulmate and best friend in reality?

real life is better than dreams when you live a life in joy. joy in Christ is love. that constant joy, that peace of God that surpasses all understanding, that is how you really live. since when does it feel so great to fall and be broken to pieces? to be destroyed? to be wrecked and to die? when you fall on the rock, when you're rebuilt behind the cross, and when you die to yourself and live for Christ. I think it is pertinent that my first blog be centered on and founded in the Redeemer, the Forgiver, the Great Counselor. it is where i must wait, and on what i must rest. i want to stand behind the cross, write through the cross, and live in humble thankfulness for the cross.

therefore my blog is titled the lion and the light. He is not tame and He is not safe (if you're concerned about the safety of your 'personal life'), but He is good. He is the King. He is the LION. i see Him and i feel Him moving, but most of all through Him i see everything else. He is the Son. He shines, and through me i hope that he points to himself. i hope to be a ray or a beam that sources from and returns to Him. He is bright and He separates all from darkness. He is the LIGHT.